A name written never spoken

It is and always will be, a mythical name at my hand
never a real name, it stings too hard, quivers too much, itches in all the wrong places.
This name is to flighty, too irreverant and unsure,
its thoughts uncohesive, flippant and a sometimes a bore.
Sometimes it sings and speaks with such joy, and walks around laughing.
Somwtimes it doesn't know what it wants, fickle dirty fickle is what it should be called.
The unreal name never disappoints, always stays true,
it doesnt change minds and acts all confused. It knows what it wants and grabs it by the tail,
It stays strong for all the right reasons, and stays put in all the right places.
The real name hates me sometimes, sometimes makes me cry.
It doens't make sense to have the real name, it will change one day, and never come back.
Better stick with the unreal, the untrue and the less painful.